Recently, I've been meditating more and more, but I'm afraid it has had some negative repercussions come with it. I'm not so sure if I'm holding onto to the pleasures that arise from meditation and therefore seeking them during the practice, or if I'm constantly second guessing myself and judging. During the meditation practice, I am fine. However it is afterwards that causes distress and anxiety. I try to note the feeling and acknowledge it as just a thought or let it go, but it seems to do the opposite affect. I've also found myself being very critical on my own ego, sometimes finding the ego to be big, even if it may not be. Perhaps suffering?
